Friday, November 7, 2008

friday night in hong kong...

i am not afraid to admit that i am exhausted. i am the kind of exhausted where everything is either hysterically funny or hysterically sad. sometimes both at the same time. i was so glad to walk out of the office this evening and the moment i was out of the building i was on the phone with DH. literally. he asked me to call him as he was a bit concerned about my mental state. this week has been quite the emotional battering....as i watched, experienced, and played mental chess with extremely manipulative people. don't like to play this kind of game as the intentions are never positive. it has been years since i've had to play this multi-layered stupid game. it is stupid...all of this effort...for what? so that a power hungry person can maintain an illusion of "face"? an illusion of obedience? despite being well trained from early childhood on how to play this game, i made a conscious decision from a very young age that this game was not for me. for me, team dynamics is about inspiring and supporting your team so that they WANT to be over-achievers... i believe in inspired loyalty...not resentful obedience.

having been thrust into this stupid game once more, i am finding it all very distasteful. i am finding it particularly distasteful that i still know how to play so well. yet, we all have to do things that we are not thrilled about for our jobs...and this was just what i had to do. i know the real reason why i was sent to this office....and at some point, the hong kong office may or may not figure it out. somehow though...i doubt that when they experience the eventual changes to their group that they will remember my innocuous little visit to the office. yet, that is their own fault....they are not able to see the forest for the trees.

after i talked to DH, i decided to wander a bit aimlessly around hong kong. it was just what i needed. walking around hong kong is what i imagine falling in love with a seductive, stunning, intense, and complex lover is like....a lover so intense and complex that i feel like i could spend years and years....just getting to know them and still be interested in waking up with them on the morrow. here are a few shots from my walk around causeway bay...







yet, alas, since i was so exhausted, i could hear sleep calling to me...much like how sleep has taken over these kitties for sale (as pets...not eating btw)


aren't they cute? it was great for me to see them....to remember that life can be very simple and also to remind myself of what i have at home. so i walked back to my hotel....and thus ending my first friday night in hong kong.

1 comment:

Victoria said...

Sorry about the work nonsense, but I am very glad you are enjoying Hong Kong...